As you read last week, our fundraising project is complete and we are now waiting. Waiting for our funds to roll in. Waiting to begin matching with our prospective birth moms. Waiting to bring our sweet baby home. Once we have reached our goal, we can begin presenting to these sweet birth mothers. After we present, we will be very close to holding the missing part of our family in our arms.
Right now, my arms are aching. I am ready. Ready like I’ve never been in my life.
I’ve had a hard time “preparing” for the baby to come. I know it will happen, but it seems surreal at this point. Not having a living thing in your belly to physically remind you it’s there makes this experience so much different. It’s hard when you don’t “feel” the reminder. I don’t have the gentle kicking, heart burn, nausea, fatigue and the euphoria of the 3rd trimester.
I might not be feeling it, but she is.
There is a mother somewhere right now that God has chosen to carry our precious piece of the family that has not come to us. I pray for her heart. I can not imagine having to make the choice to let someone else raise, love on and care for my baby. To go on with my life without this child.
Can you even fathom how hard that decision might be?
I can’t. That’s why I pray for her. I pray for the choices she has to make. I pray that God would protect her heart, her mind and this little seed in her belly that is growing. Please pray for her too. Right now. Right where you are. Pray that the Lord will show her His grace and love. That he will heal her hurts. But most importantly, that she will see the Lord and accept Him. I want this sweet mother to feel His amazing love for her. Because if she is making this hard decision, I would guess she isn’t feeling support and love, and that is why she has to chose.
But she did chose. She has chosen adoption and that is the most important decision she will ever make. Despite the fact that she isn’t going to raise her child, she did make that very unselfish decision to give life and not take it.
And for that, I am eternally grateful.
